I had a wonderful time today just hanging out with my daughter "Leslie" doing whatever we please and in no hurry. We both are looking at flooring but no decisions were made and I don't really care because my company made this a special window of time.
Yesterday I went to church for the first time since Diane became ill without her. We were able to have someone stay with her and it did take a lot of stress off of both of us, but it wasn't the same. This is something we've always done together and I didn't like it. I'm sure all these changes will be something we will get used to.
Last Thursday we took Diane to see her Doctor for an evaluation and get a prescription for some in home assistance. The first reality that hit home was that she had lost 'Seventy Five Pounds' since the last time they had weighed her. We know that she sleeps a lot and has very little interest in eating or drinking. Diane's Blood Pressure was also really low and that was also a big change.
I brought Karen, Diane's caregiver with us and Dr. Craft took time to give us some options. He ended up giving us a prescription with Hospice to have them give me options. We finished our Dr. Appointment before noon, and by four PM we had already met with four representatives from Hospice.
I know the finality of what Hospice represents and the tough decisions that need to be made, but it's reassuring to know that they are here with us through this heartbreaking process. After talking with them I believe there is a good possibility that she can finish her time here in our home. One thing that was encouraging was the provision of five day respite for me every couple months.
Some positive notes to think about, on this juncture of our journey. She doesn't seem to be in pain. She used to anguish over losing memory, and not being able to keep up with others mentally. She doesn't talk about that anymore.
We are a family of Faith and we haven't given up hope, but that doesn't mean we aren't going to prepare for any possibility.
paul